Half (about) of the family at East Timor
The house is very quiet. The two noisy ones in our family are away as part of a Mission team to East Timor.
They flew off on Saturday, and that was when we first read the news about the death of a 12-year old TKPS girl in the Sabah earthquake. ย Over the next few days, we were told that 6 students, a teacher and a guide were killed, and another teacher and student were still missing. But on Saturday, the rest of the entourage were still missing.
So when I sent them off at the airport, I had mixed feelings.
I was so proud of them.
Edmund had wanted to go to East Timor for some time, and I knew Elias was the best person to go with him. They are both excellent problem-solvers and enjoy being in the field.
Yet I felt somewhat disconcerted about them being overseas, in the light of recent events. If I had the chance to change their minds about the trip, would I? But I did not try to.
So now everyday, I look forward to news from Edmund about what they did that day, because that would mean that they are safe.
The TKPS team which went up to Mt Kota Kinabalu kept a blog. They documented their climb up and there were many congratulatory comments when they made it up to Pendant Hut. It was such a happy blog. The blog has now been made private, understandably.
For this reason, I was hesitant about documenting Edmund and Elias’ trip in this blog, before they have actually returned. It is not superstition, but I am not sure how I would manage it emotionally, reading this blog post, if anything serious WERE to happen to them the same way it happened to the TKPS team.
In the end, I decided to write it, because this is a way for me to deal with the confusion I am experiencing in my mind, and in my heart. (A sharp reader would have noticed, that I said that I felt disconcerted, and yet I said I do not feel a lot of anxiety. Contradictory huh. Yes, I have conflicting emotions. So? I am a woman, dare you challenge me?! ๐ )
In the words of JRR Tolkein’s Treebeard, “The world is changing. I feel it in the water, I feel it in the earth, and I smell it in the air.”
Yet somehow, when you are in Singapore, you do not think the change will touch you.
It is ironical in a way, because Singapore is so well-connected. Yet, for those of us who stay back in Singapore, we do live in a bubble of security, in our clean, efficient little city in a garden, as comfortable in shorts and slippers at wet markets and hawker centres as we are in suits and heels at Jason’s and Michelin-starred restaurants. We have everything we need and more – world-class education, healthcare, technology, safety & security, entertainment and the list goes on.
Singapore has made a name for itself, so the world comes to us, and we can remain who we are, yet still have a taste of the world.
And if we want more – we go on an exotic holiday and the children go for expeditions.ย It is a perfect situation. Until something goes awry.
I do not think Singapore will remain untouched for long.
Elias told me that nothing can happen to Singapore, because Singapore is not susceptible to earthquakes or any natural disaster. But I am not too sure, because I know these are the last days and all these disasters are the beginning of birth pains. In any case, earthquake is just one possible form of disaster.
How then should we live? We can start shrinking back, but it will just keep coming closer and closer till we have nothing left to stand on except our lives and even if that kind of life is worth living, that will be taken away from us too.
I miss the two of them, because they are the life of our family. They are the most disruptive and annoying (oops!), so there is much peace at home now, but there is little fun when they are not around.
I am glad that we have adventurers in our family. You go before us, and you give us courage. You tell us it can be done and show us how to do it.
We should not live in fear – it is pointless. The bible says “The just shall live by faith”, and we need to be always prepared. ย The truth is, I only started to learn to be quick(er)-thinking, (more) aware of the situation, and (more) responsive after I met Edmund.
And imagine my delight when I found Elias so much like his father in that area. (So in the event that Edmund is not available, Elias can take care of me…).
So, anyway.. things are a bit scary for me back home now, without the two of you… so do come back safely… ๐
Hugs to you, and kudos for staying brave in the Lord during these times and letting them go with your blessing. Encouraged by your words, and something I need to remind myself of too. Trusting that the boys and their team will have a meaningful experience and come home safe and sound ๐
Thanks Dorothy, for the encouragement! They have returned, I am so glad. The house has come alive! ๐ And I am now very busy again ๐ My son did not want to come back. But he has to learn to be faithful with small things, before God will bless him with greater things.